Lip Service

Filled out job applications today, again.  For someone who is told as often as I am that I have a great resume, I sure do have a hard time finding a job.  My resume is great at getting me lip service, but nothing more - flattering comments that boost my ego, but ultimately do nothing for me.  I guess that's better than being told my resume sucks and I am an asshole, but it still gets frustrating after a while.

So far I have applied as an English teacher, creative tutor, dog walker, dog groomer, bartender, budtender, beertender and cook.  I have received no call backs or interviews.  Usually, I don't wait for call backs.  I take the initiative and follow up.  But since these are online applications, I don't know who the fuck is reading them (if anyone is reading them).  The decision makers keep themselves hidden on purpose.  They don't want people like me bothering them, and I don't blame them.  I wouldn't either.  There are dozens of people like me looking for jobs, and only one of them.

I believe I have about a month before I get evicted from my apartment.  That doesn't give me a lot of time, but it's doable.  I've been in this position before, and made it out, but there are never any guarantees.  I caught a good break last time, and I need another one now.  I don't know what's going to happen, but I know I will keep going and document all of it.  My ego will keep loving the lip service, but my actual self will keep hoping it turns into something real.  Soon.